in bed and dreaming

today i am sick in bed and doing a lot of online window shopping. i have fibromyalgia, which makes it hard to get out of bed some mornings. every doctor i see tells me something different about fibromyalgia, always going between 'this is a new disease and we are just learning what makes your body hurt' and 'this is not a real disease, it is just what we tell people who we cannot pinpoint what is wrong with them.' i have been in and out of doctors for years with various problems, and when all of my blood tests and various other tests came back well within the 'perfectly healthy' range, i became very frustrated. it's hard to be in pain and not know why. i have been reading studies that say that people with fibromyalgia have problems with pain receptors and some neurological issues that researchers are just finding out- i'd just like someone to fix me.

until someone can fix me, i am simply dreaming of buying things on the internet that i cannot really afford.

my diana broke, which makes me very sad, but that's what happens when you are tough on your things and they are made of plastic. i would like to buy the mini one that takes 35mm film, since developing 120 gets a bit expensive and tedious.

this is not a dress i would normally want, but i am trying to force myself to wear more color. and i guess also wear more colors that i don't normally wear. this is a prime example. some grey tights and black flats would accompany this dress. thanks, urban outfitters.

i would really like this canadian flag belt buckle. who wouldn't? i mean look at it. it's marvelous. they are all over ebay, and for not too much. i think i might treat myself to one very soon.

my husband has a pair of these, and i have recently been cursing the rain, mud, slush, and various other wet ground conditions. why would i live in scotland and not have a pair of waterproof boots?

also, i ordered some new clothes from forever21 and had them sent to my in-laws. they are going to ship them to me. this is a much cheaper way of doing it than having it shipped directly to me from the online store. plus this way i can get some extra stuff put in the box that i am craving, like kraft mac and cheese. i will post these things when i get them- i tried to find photos of them on the website but they appear to be gone already. dragsville.

today: my sweater, me, and ira

i love this cardigan. i have worn it 3 days in a row. i think i am going to buy it in a couple more colors. i love you, american apparel. just putting that out there.

also, this is my dog, ira. he is a 3 month old lab who likes to chew things and eat things and pee on things. he is pretty dang special.

i got this cardigan in the mail yesterday from my father in law. he is probably the sweetest man ever, especially considering my father and i never speak. it's nice to have someone's father in my life send me presents from america like american apparel cardigans and peanut butter and rice crackers.

'why didn't you photograph yourself wearing it?'

actually, my friend got into town yesterday and i have been just hanging out nonstop.

i am a blog starter slacker.

i solemnly swear to get it the frick together.

london

a few weeks ago, i read about the topshop outlet in london. immediately, my heart filled with joy which turned to sadness when i realized that there probably isn't anyone in edinburgh who would want to go with me. i don't actually have any friends here who are interested in clothes. my friends are all great, but that is a part of my life i don't feel like i can share with anyone. even this blog, which only has one follower, isn't something i am sharing with people.

i'm putting this out into the blogosphere for anyone who will read it:

i want to go to london in the spring. i would like to make some friends who would like to go with me. i would like to meet people in london who are cool. i would just really like to have a good time while i am living here. i return to the states this coming summer, and i think it would be silly to have lived in the uk for a year and a half and not even seen london.

not brave enough to photograph these, but-

i am wearing sequined underwear today. they were on sale at urban outfitters, and i think they are pretty fabulous. i think i am pretty modest in regard to my own undergarments; no thongs, little lace, nothing see-through, in-tact crotches. i don't know, i just really like comfortable lady parts.

these, though...these underwear are amazing. the back is see-through mesh, and the front is black sequined, and they are extremely comfortable. i walked 2 miles today and couldn't have been happier.

i know it's just a pair of underwear, but geez. they're great.

ain't love grand?

i thought that since i have not been taking photos of myself, i might do a post of what i wore for my wedding. or rather, my wedding reception. i got married a year ago, and didn't have a party for it until august. i had my dress custom made by dame couture in chicago, and wore old navy flip flops [which are my staple once the weather gets to about 55ºF].

cut your hair

hello friends.

the truth is that i have been very reclusive and have not been properly 'getting dressed' as of late. i am pretty lazy about this blog so far.

i did notice today, when i wore my hair down for the first time since christmas [i know. shameful. and bad for my hair] that is has gotten really long. i snapped a photo in photobooth on my way out the door. i was actually wearing a pretty stellar outfit, but i just forgot to take a photo. i'm not completely in the mindset yet.

my hair is reaching a climax in its identity crisis. i have always had boy-short hair, but 2 years ago i started growing it out. i cut it into a bob and kept it like that for a while, but now i've been growing it without nothing more than a trim since last january. i guess my hair grows pretty slow, but now it is long enough that i feel like i can walk into a salon and say, 'hi. here is my head of hair. please do something nice to make me look attractive.'

this year:one year ago [and surprised, apparently]:

outfit photos starting soon.